So begins the second half of this weekly (or bi-weekly, of monthly, or bi-monthly) exercise. Let us see how regularly, (or let me be honest – irregularly), I write these next 26 blogs.
I must say right now I am pretty content with life. I always have plenty to eat. I always have a place to sleep. I always have someone with whom I can chat. I always have books and music. I carry no fire in my belly.
And that must be a major reason why I do not have an imperative to write these blogs on a weekly basis. It honestly makes no difference in my life whether or not I write them.
There are other things that are imperative. I cannot pay my mortgage if I do not teach and perform. So, I have no problem getting to my instrument each day for the required hour or two. I cannot eat if I do not go to the grocery store of work in the garden. So, I also put in that effort.
But this blog is just a fun thing. I can do it or not do and that’s all there is to it.
Except, I told myself I was going to do this thing every week, and I am not doing it. I am disappointing myself. Disappointing myself makes me discontent. It makes my spirit itchy.
So indeed, I may not be as content as I am trying to tell myself.
I recently watched the movie The Professor and the Madman. It is about the almost impossible task of creating the Oxford English Dictionary. Who knew the story of a dictionary could be so interesting?! In the movie there was one line by the Professor’s wife that has struck an arrow in my heart. “Now that it is started, let us see it through, steadfast and resolved.”
Those thirteen words speak to my success. It is not enough for me to be content with just being. I must accomplish … Accomplish what? Whatever I determine counts as accomplishment. The answer to my discontent, as the answer to my content, is within myself.
It is really so simple:
I started. I need to see it through. I need to be steadfast. I must be resolved.
I resolve to post this now!